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[01 Oct 2007|03:30pm] |
I found this to be pretty interesting. It basically explains how Christianity is a "stolen" religion and that it's false(theoretically). It tells us how people are worshiping jesus when all jesus really is , is just a metaphor for the Sun. get it... Son? Sun? So basically, Christians are either pagans, hindus, or Egyptians.
Even though I just told you what is was about, watch it anyway because I'm biased and that's how I perceived it. :]
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[04 Jul 2007|10:16am] |
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I could care less about my birthday. Friends aren't calling me back. I'm still not sure what we're doing. I don't want t do anything except hang out. But I feel obligated to do something. So, we'll get all dressed up and go out to dinner I guess.
Nothing new except my boobs got bigger. annnnnd I'm friends with Jesse. And he's his old self.Which I'm really glad about.
Tonight, I'll probably go to La Habra and watch the firework's show and blow stuff up in the driveway.
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[23 Jun 2007|10:20pm] |
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I went to my cousin's Grandma's 80'th birthday tribute thing.
FILLED with old people.
well, one old lady introduced herself.
She then proceded to rub my tummy.
I had my eyebrow raised already.
"OOOOOHHH you're having a baby?"
I thought that shit only happened in movies.
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[16 Jun 2007|06:33pm] |
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As I Lay Tanning (5:49:12 PM): Are you going to LS next year?
All Summer Longx (5:49:29 PM): Yep.
As I Lay Tanning (5:50:11 PM): I was just wondering.
All Summer Longx (5:50:24 PM): Alright.
As I Lay Tanning (5:51:59 PM): I would also like to know what i am to you. Like, what will become of us next year? Are we going to be friends... or stay like this?
All Summer Longx (5:53:03 PM): idk. it's funny cause i thought you HATED me. I saw all your friends at Target. Like Marissa and all them. They were pointing and lughing.
As I Lay Tanning (5:53:26 PM): I can't hate, it's nearly impossible.
As I Lay Tanning (5:53:41 PM): Marissa told me about that, I told her she was stupid and immature
All Summer Longx (5:53:52 PM): But it would be cool to be friends again...
All Summer Longx (5:54:01 PM): If it's cool
All Summer Longx (5:54:05 PM): w/you
As I Lay Tanning (5:54:56 PM): By all means, It's cool with me. You know I can't stay angry and have something go unresolved. I wanted to work things out but I was hestitant. I didn't know how you felt
All Summer Longx (5:56:38 PM): I mean, the only reason i said that stuff was cause i honestly thought things were good, friends wise. but then you asked me to prom and i thought you thought it would be more than friendly--I KNOW, I'M A AN ASS--but i'm really sorry. That was stupid and really 7th grade of me. I mean, we're seniors for Christ's sake.
As I Lay Tanning (5:58:33 PM): Yeah, i see what you mean. I think it'll all work out if we just repect eachother. And if you're wondering about my motives, ask me.
As I Lay Tanning (5:59:39 PM): It's easy for me to trust people, is that good or bad? So you should be able to earn my trust no problem. Becuase to be honest, I really don't trsut you. But we're both growing up and we know what has to be done. So I think It'll all be alright
All Summer Longx (6:00:24 PM): I agree. So, just to re-clarify, I'm sorry.
As I Lay Tanning (6:00:43 PM): I'm sorry too, for not being clear with you on the prom thing.
All Summer Longx (6:01:22 PM): Please, do not apologize. I shouldnt have acted so...self-absorbed
As I Lay Tanning (6:01:52 PM): well, i don't want to blame you for everything :]
All Summer Longx (6:02:32 PM): Well I'm glad we're cool. Especially since La Serna next year and everything
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[31 May 2007|05:37pm] |
For the first time I can ever recall, my mother told me she was proud of me last night.
"How's school going?"
"Fine, I guess. Still catching up from what I missed."
"I'm proud of you for finally trying."
"I've always tried, It's just the results have never met your expectations."
"Well, everyone has their weaknesses. At least you don't get into trouble."
And I'm thinking at least i don't get caught.
My mother's retarded.
and I skipped school today. Mainly to watchthe view and start on my history paper.
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[25 May 2007|10:18pm] |
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Well, I haven't posted in a while. It's mostly due to the fact that I don't have enough time because I am really enjoying life right now. I'm still a little sore on the subject of Jesse. Something tells me I always will be a little bit. Good news, He's out of my life and although I still want him to ask me if we can still be friends because I want to know how important I was/am to him. But he won't ever do that because the only person important in his life is himself, and he has other people handle his situations. Oh well. I hope he gets the best in life. But I hope I get better.
I found myself closer to my friends even more now. It's good good good. All we mostly do is smoke, but hey..that's okay. We're laughing, cracking jokes all is good.
Shaun's back with Jake and i just love jake. They're so wonderful for eachother. Jake and I haven't really spoken much since my blow out with marissa a year ago, but now that were're all just fine and dandy, we're getting used to eachother again.
Shaun asked jake if he liked his friends or not, and Jake said are you kidding me, Aly's Hilarious! I don't know why people think I'm so funny?
Jasmine found me on Myspace and I met up with her on last Sunday. My god, she can bring me to tears because she is still the same Jasmine since the 6th grade. Her personality has not changed one bit. She still has the same laugh and does all the same silly voices. We were cracking up the whole night.
Ooh kay. So I have a little crush on Jordan. eep. He's a Jehobo's witness. But I don't mind. he's really innocent and weird and I like it.
My driving's getting worse?
I've been sick for a whole week so I haven't gone to school. So I've been sitting home and watching the view. That shit's intense. Wait, Rosie's intense. But it's seriously my new favorite show and I wish I had tivo cause I'm already at school by 10 "[
& I have lost nine pounds randomly.
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[12 Apr 2007|10:28pm] |
this is what I sent to Jesse, because I found out what HE had said about me.
Lets just start this off by saying that I am sorry for not telling you in person, but I would rather it be this way because I can be just as anti-confrontational as you can.
So, after today, You know... the whole rejecting me for prom pretty much right after you said you would go. Marissa called me and asked me what you had said and I told her. We got to talking about who else I could take and yada yada. I told her I was not willing to go anymore...yada yada. She suddenly bursts out on the phone to read your comments. I'm not into that sort of deal, you know spying on your friends and what not. She told me it was about me, so I was curious and I admit, I looked. I was rather quite suprised on what I found and was undoubtledly upset. I mean why was one of your friends, who I have only waved at, was saying such things about someone she didn't even know. So, I've been upset for a couple hours now. But just in the last 30 minutes, Marissa sent me a message with what you had sent to Chloe. Yes, Marissa added chloe. But I read what you had typed. And wow, was it low. I didn't know you had it in you. Calling me crazy? what if I am? It just really hurt because it was like you were pretending to be my friend or something. And there's possibly a fact that you lied. After all that we've both been through, i thought we were all said and done with this immaturity. So I'm sitting here completly flabberghasted, my hands are shaking and my heart is jumping out of my chest and suprisingly enough, I haven't cried. I haven't cried because I can be strong, which I don't even know if you think I am. But If I can make it through all our past events, I can sure as hell make it through this. No, I'm not going to talk shit about you, because the Jesse i knew was caring and didn't deserve it. But now that you do, I still won't because I have dignity. I just hope that some time from now you realize what you have done, or have gone through what I have in the past years from your expense. I don't know if we could ever talk again because I am embarassed, ashamed, and just flat out fooled by what you have done. It will be hard seeing you at La Serna, thinking that you were once one of the best friends that i could ever ask for and I loved you in that respect. But if this is what you're going to do to people who treat you nicely, then i don't want a part of that. Like I said, One day, I hope you realize what you have done.
This is it.
I guess... bye.
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[12 Apr 2007|08:00pm] |
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I don't know what to do. It's so embarassing. I asked Jesse to Prom, and he said yes. And to make a long story short, he went back on it because His friend's birthday is that day. So, no prom date. And it's not like I'm gonna go out and ask some other guy now. I'm afraid the same thing will happen. So now I'm all depressed and sulking. And I'm experiancing the strangest feeling like I'm really heavy, like literally. Like so much pressure is pushing down on me. So when I'm feeling really shitty, Marissa IMs me and tells me to look at Jesse's comments. So i do. And although I can't see what Jesse has sent to his friend Chloe, I can see what she sent him. It was only obvious that they were making fun of me and talking shit.
I don't settle for stuff like that, and especially not from him. He has let me down countless times and made me feel like shit for the things he's said. Quite frankly, I don't even know why I asked him to Prom. And as he was over my house yesterday, the thought kept running through my head "Something's going to go wrong." Because it is so typical for him to break me and leave me there on the ground.
I just don't understand his motives and why he would allow his friend to say such things about someone they don't even know. And the saddest part, She was even sort of defending me. I kinda want to talk to Jesse anbout it, and be like What the Hell? you know? But If I ever saw him, I would knock his lights out. and I think that's what he deserves, he deserves for Karma to go around and bite him in the ass , he needs a taste of his own medicine and needs to get beat up by a girl.
So yeah. I've lost everything ounce of feeling I ever had for him. Sure I used to be in love with him or whatever,and I think that's why he doesn't want to go with me, so he's making this whole deal up...idk. But after I was over him, which has been such a long time and accomplishment for me, I only loved him as a friend. but Now I do not even care for the kid. He's up there with Steven Tannenbaum. I can't trust anything from him from now on. And if for some odd reason we do ever talk again, he will have to earn every ounce of trust back and it will not be easy because I am sick and tired of this bullshit.
AMEN!
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[11 Apr 2007|08:18pm] |
uhm... I guess nevermind?
I won't know again until tomorrow.
bah fuck.
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[03 Apr 2007|12:07am] |
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Yeah, not friends with Kim anymore.
I'm sick of rotten people bringing me down.
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[28 Mar 2007|07:29pm] |
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I am so pissed/ scared right now. I have just found out that Kelsey, My best friend since 2nd grade, but have recently drifted apart from, has been doing speed and is addicted.
She was coming down from a bad trip and went swimming and caugh pnuemonia. Her lungs are bleeding and shit.
The reason I am so pissed is because it's obviously stupid. Also, her mom was a druggie and is in jail currently for breaking parole for posession.
And I'm terrified because some stupid mistake could cost her her life. She's taking Life for granted. And I'm terrified that I'm going to attend my 16 year old best friend's fucking funeral.
And there's absolutely nothing I can do but talk to her, and she's not one to listen so i don't know what the fuck to do.
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I went to disneyland again. and got brutally sunburned.
On our way back we went to Gondolas. mmm.
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[12 Mar 2007|10:36pm] |
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[11 Mar 2007|11:09am] |
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I'm pretty much in love with life right now. I realize i should stop complaining about what i don't have, and focus on what I do have. I have so much more then other people, and I should be thankful. I don't need to spend my parents paychecks on true religion jeans, makeup,designer clothing, accessories, etcetera to make me feel beautiful/better about myself. I don't want people to judge me by the things on top of me. I realize that this is life. It's better to be carefree then wonder what people are thinking about you. Live life to it's fullest, what do you have to lose? You don't need to be spending your young adult years looking for a hook up either, You don't need someone else to adore you more then life itself. You have plenty of friends for that. If you need someone to hold you, go to a friend. Believe me, they'll always stick by you and never accuse you of sleeping around.
I'm in no hurry, I have 80 more years to live. Why try to jam pack every adventure into your adolescent years?
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[10 Mar 2007|10:39pm] |
Today was just a wonderful day.I wake up early to saturday school and meet kim and shaun there, Mario too. Mario didn't know anyone else, so we let him hang.
Turns out there's not enough room for saturday school, so come back later.
Then when Tony ( the security guard) goes away, Mario Goes "I got weed!"
So we went to Creek park and smoked. So many funny things happened.
Shaun called Kim an Alien. "Who are you...Alien."
Kim slipped in mud.
Mario tripped me out so bad.
Me and shaun stepped in horse shit.
I got stuck under a wood fense thing.
Oh and I started crying and I didn't know why.
"Is it supposed to make you cry?"
"No Aly, you're just laughing too hard."
then kim told me to go to green burrito, so I take shaun and go, and by this time i'm fucking faded.oh man.
Then we go to the gas station/Mcdonalds/smoke shop
And so I'm leaving to go there, kim's behind me and we're at the whittwood, and I stop so shaun and I can see the fountain. but we can't really see from where we're at. So I go up the curb. and kim passes me and is in disbelief. hahaha. and I basically drive all the way to target up on the curb,
meanwhile, my eyes are sealded shut from laughter, and I'm still singing the words to Destiny's Child.
a few other things happened, but they're not as funny.
So Kim invites me to smoke tonight, but with eric and beth too. and since they're all into smoking al was like hell yeah. I took about six hits when I was there, and was not effected at all. it sucked.
And I coughed up blood, and kim was convinced i was going to die.
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[01 Mar 2007|09:03pm] |
I don't understand!
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[28 Feb 2007|07:24pm] |
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Godddd I feel really horrible. I feel like the only people who want to even speak to me are Theresa, Lisa, and Marissa. I feel that beth feels obligated to, because I'm taking her to OK go. Something bad happened today with Kim. & of course she wouldn't really tell me. She told me what happened in a nutshell, but I won't post it because I think she still reads this, and I know she wouldn't want it spread around. But All in all, Eric Cheated on her...? And if she ever needed to talk to anyone, she could talk to me, because I've been cheated on twice. I know what she going through, if that's what actually happened. I kinda get the feeling that she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore, despite what her letter said. And even if she is going through something, I could help her, we All could help her. I mean, that's what friends do. We're going on five years, and she would rather talk to/hang out with Evelia or whatever her name is. It' kinda dissapointing.
Shaun's acting really strange too. Maybe I'm just paranoid but it seems like he's avoiding/ignoring me. So basically, since this is all happening around me, I ,again, feel like the problem.
But it was really cool because today I picked Lisa up to take pictures with me. So we went to parnell park, and didn't find anything. So we went To St. Brunos. And we were swinging on the swings as the sun set, and it reminded me of summer when we were seven. It was a pretty neat feeling. It's cool knowing someone for most of your life. I want my mom to win the lottery so that She could go to prom and move in with me, and go to the same college as me, and basically become surgically attached to the hip. I doubt I could live without my Lisa.
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[27 Feb 2007|10:38pm] |
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So Sha Sha by Ben Kweller is a pretty cute song.
And It makes me all nostalgic because when I was first learning to talk, my family would ask me what my name was, and I would say "Sha Sha".
haha They still tease me about it to this day.
But seriously that song is so cute.
I asked Beth to go to a Snow Patrol and OK go concert with me. My mom thinks I like them so she bought me tickets. Beth was the only person I knew that liked Ok go, so what the hell. I'm taking her. She's all exited too. It's so cute.
I have a really strong urge to go bowling. haha weird.
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[26 Feb 2007|03:31pm] |
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Today was an off day. Pretty much un-enjoyable.
I don't feel close to Kim or Beth at all anymore, and today just proved the fact when the only words Kim said to me were "Yeah." and "Oh, You meen Saturday School? Yeah, I was there." And something else about horses. It makes me wonder what I'm doing wrong. I mean, we just reconciled, and they're treating me like they did before.
I guess I need to just find someone else to spend most of my time with. Lisa and Jodi are not in this picture because they like to stay home. See, that's why us three would always do something. Now it's just...them two.
It's not a great feeling, but I wish someone would understand. I guess the only solution to this is to meet new people and spend my days with those people. I don't know. I guess I may just have to change some more because no one really likes me the way I am. No seriously, I have a list posted to my wall of things I need to change about myself.
On lighter notes, I dyed my hair darker and I'm not happy with it. I want something edgy. Like Hot Pink.
And I'm starting to talk really loud now. I don't know what the deal is.
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